I keep reading these articles about how toxic the dating and hookup culture is now a days and I can’t help but see my own reflection in that.
I’m supposed to be studying right now but all I can think about is if this one dude I met recently likes me or if he just wants to fuck. It frustrates me because i have the very bad habit of overthinking ever breath I take, let alone possible relationships. And i do it especially when I like someone. Because I like this guy. Sure, I don’t know him much, we met last week, but I want to know him. The thing is, I don’t know if he wants to get to know me or if he’s just interested in sex.
How do you know the difference?
I’ve dated a lot of different people this year, some were more friends with benefits, and others were clear hook ups, but I knew what those were because it was clear from the get-go. Also, going back to my bad habit of overthinking, I like someone that I like to know that I like them and appreciate them. But I’m so afraid of being clingy or reading things wrong and then having it turn out that they weren’t interested in getting to know me at all and just wanted something easy.
It’s a weird like to have to tip toe.
Our dating culture is fucked up. Like with tinder, all we are doing is treating people as if they were disposable. “Oh you didn’t like that one? Here go to the next one.” And so on. I feel like it has created something where we all have to be “chill” with whatever is happening and not question it, not define it, because then if you do it’s all bad.
I don’t know man.
I just know I want someone to want to get to know me, to want to make me feel appreciated. Because honestly I just want to do that too. But for this boy that’s in my mind right now. I want him to know I appreciate him. And his dancing, he has killer dance moves lol